have you hugged a whale lately ?

super sad

optingout — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 02:55:05 +0000

so, it is a blessing and a hazard to work in the department where i am receiving some of my medical treatments. i have an appointment with my regular ob/gyn tomorrow, whom i have been seeing for years. in an effort to give her as much info about me as possible, i logged into my medical records … the results for my AMH levels were there. little did i know that AMH is a marker for ovarian reserve, and in conjunction with the other tests basically says how many eggs i might have left. the normal range from AMH is 0.9-9.something. my AMH level is 0.5. i can’t stop crying. i hope it is not the doomsday message that i think it is.

two lines

optingout — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 02:50:14 +0000

surge day! it appears i am making eggs and setting them free as i am supposed to be…blood draw next saturday to make sure. this is the last hurdle to knowing where my fertility stands. kind of exciting, kind of scary.

mittelschmerz

optingout — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 21:24:02 +0000

so, i am either super “in tune” with what’s going on or i am starting to lose my mind over all of this monitoring and paying attention to every little sensation that i have been doing. i was up last night in the middle of the night buying concert tickets for a show that just happens to be in europe while i am going to be there for work in about 6 weeks. i was having a hard time falling back to sleep, and as it seems to work for me now, i was starting to get a little tenderness/achy feeling around the time that i ovulate. as i was lying in bed, i had a little bit of increasing pain and i swear it was as if i could feel the follicle being set free. after a few minutes i felt much better and promptly fell asleep. real, or imagined?

two lines

optingout — Fri, 22 Jul 2011 13:25:52 +0000

hsg

optingout — Tue, 19 Jul 2011 23:04:48 +0000

and this gets a little more real every day…i had a test today to look at my inside “junk” and it passed!! now it’s just a matter of making sure i ovulate and picking the donor and i am ready to go.

no line

optingout — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 16:26:22 +0000

i peed on what was the first of potentially many ovulation predictor test sticks today. there was no line of any kind, not a faint one, a dark one, or more than one. this could be a challenge.

introducing the OP

optingout — Sun, 17 Jul 2011 19:39:00 +0000

it’s been a long while since i’ve even visited this site, much less posting anything….partly because blogging about my running wasn’t improving my running and i honestly just get bored with sitting in front of the computer. so, after perusing a few old posts and not being any more interested in them than i was two years ago, i deleted them.

while i still run here and there and enjoy doing it (mostly) i am embarking on a much more exciting and challenging adventure. i have decided i am going to try to become a mom! i am excited and terrified.